Taking the Big Step

This post is all about me. If you have little interest in me or my life then read on otherwise please close the window.

I am utterly confused, I am desperately trying to find the motive of my existence. Is it only writing some meaningless codes for some people, whom I have never met or is it something big? I really don't have the answer right now.

Do I really wanted to be someone or its just an excuse to keep of the things. I want to go on a ride to Leh. I want to travel whole India in 2nd class compartment. I want to do community services. I want my life to be filled with adventure, adreline rush, excitement. I want to be a writer someday, an enterprenuer. I know it seems impossible and funny to have desires like these or you can also say these are the common fantasies lots of people have.

Here is the difference, Till the time these remain fantasies for me I am just a common man but the day I'll start making them a reality, I'll be a happy person or I would use the world extra ordinary which everyone wants to be on this planet.

In all confusion, one thing is sure that I do not want to live a normal life. I want my life to be meaningful and on a path of Self discovery. I do no want to get up in the morning and go to office and wait for someone to tell me what I have to do for the rest of the day.

But the big question is To pursue, whatever I mentioned above, you got to have Balls!!! Do I have it in me?

I may or may not, but surely I will find the answer very soon. I don't want to waste my life in pretending to be someone, I am not.

What is the right time to do what you really want to do? Lets start from school. In school you study hard because your parents want and they are right in their senses. In college you study hard so that you can land up in a good job, In job you work hard to excel in work. One day you get retired with a weak feeling in your heart that there are still hundred of things which you should have done.

Answer is you will never get the ideal situation, you have to take the big step. You ought to beat the time otherwise it won't give you a second chance.

You might be thinking that all I am talking here is nonsense but ask a person who has followed his dreams in midst of all the opposition what is that feeling.

I'll be doing an introspection what I really want and how can I take the Big Step.